but it isn't all at all

eight and a half ornamental ivorie bowling balls..
my head.

i'm a steam train today. i'll rain today.
strain.

who is in control? (zero)

i want to be a porn star

I think it effectively affected me

"you don't know the real me."
"there is no real you."

I don't mind people dying
I don't feel like myself

How often does Hell blossom?

extra-ordinary men are always tempted by the most ordinary things.

I lost you to gamble
I want to be a hermit and never have to deal with anything remotely person.
I WANT TO BE A PERSON.
Then I wouldn't think twice about having to do person things and live in a person world.

I'm not miserable --> ARE YOU CRAZY?!!? BAH!

I'm permanently distracted by I
he must've worked forever on the book... it is not merely fiction

as long as each person thinks it is secretly amazing ... everyone is secretly amazing

miles and miles of everything to say
art doesn't seem as though it should consist of calculated precision
repitition
I don't like to think that it does at all, those things are so unartistic. It should be impulsive, explosive, uncontained.

"What was Dr Stein's favorite line? 'Understanding is a delaying tactic.' Stein used to get angry about that. When the graduate students would intellectualize, going on and on about patients and their problems, he would interrupt in annoyance, 'Who cares? Who cares whether we understand the psychodynamics in this case? Do you want to understand how to swim, or do you want to jump in and start swimming? Only people who are afraid of the water want to understand it. Other people jump in and get wet."
Michael Crichton
Sphere

People who are not in touch with their emotions tend to think emotions are unimportant.
According to Einstein, anything not 'rational' is 'merely personal'.

how are you?
I can complain
nice nice

must you
must I
distract me
from so far away
please please

mother dreamt I was pregnant
I dreamt I was blind
just keep telling me that everything's fine...!!

alright      ..

1one horse open sleigh
I mean, COME ON!

It doesn't matter how the world had turned out... it'd be perfect anyway

Screaming at the dying dog
dragging time:
faster faster FASTER

sleeping dog lie
amazingly inept

four toes and three toes and five tes and three toes
People who 'can't write' are just brilliant writers with permanent writer's block.

swanoe swanoe

words poured forth as if a black cork had been pulled from the bottom of his soul.

feet taste like popcorn
  mEaningless yet marketAble

if you're not going to listen to me
i'm not going to repeat myself

"I'm not going to love you anymore if there are voices in your head"
I believe in possibility
which one of us should be miserable?

In a world full of eggless baskets,
the only which way to go
over the hills on the
heavy side of
the moon:
these
only people
who think they
know are
the only
ones.
ONLY!
every one
of me has
no idea of
all those
which ways.
They all suppose I suppose. ha!

"Unce Epon Um... Right!!!
Said gum on my shoe,
I REALLY am
fascinated. Intrigued even
the weather is
lovely. Wish
you were here."

In my mind, I wonder who
Out of my mind, I promise you
Mouth a gun, some going numb
Once was one, never was new

I'd like to
kill you my dear
I'd like to
know what it's like

(I want you to die
I want to know what it's like)

brain a balloon
hot air
unfair
sorry to say
silly to play
if you don't mind
out of my way

the princess and the pea
always the bride's maid, never the bride

smiling duck
biting the light

I don't mind
I'll stay out of your way
I'm a passive, tiny
silly to say

as above
so below

once upon a time...
This doesn't concern You.
nothing concerns!!!
stop
stop
STOP
SSIUGDWIUD

At long last
Last any longer
The world mourned
Along with her mother

at long last!!
no one's head shall be higher than the King's!

pocket full of posers
ferocious ambiguity
flaming paper angel
or lack of it

it doesn't matter
what I say
cause you'll never know
anyway

the only thing that doesn't matter
is the past

stolen pure white unicorn
tenth hearted about everything

regarding the war between Heaven and Earth:
    falling stars and fallen angels
    when they fall the sky goes blind
    Heaven goes blind

sleeping succubi love lorn lost
lost all reason, must have a reason

malady of mortality

no people please
no other people please
no other people please in my head please
get out of my head please!!

adult with a children's head
child's head!
stay on the lines
or I'll deem thy VAIN please
no other people please
how are we feeling?
out of my way please
that's how i'm feeling
far too sweet cordial please
filling my head please
i'm a tad bit late please
out of my way!

i think it's time for me to accept that not everyone thinks the same way I do ..   or even relatively similar .

32nd selfish shallow thought of the day: i hate people and their mindless minds *pow*

i've been looking for mannequins on eBay .. i've wanted one for .. . a while and only just thought to look.. there
but they all either suck or are too expensive.. people must love mannequins
i could get one of the legless-armless-headless ones and just ..paint it
or something

i've been an illegal alien for ..5 days.
still waiting for a plane ticket back to australia to drop into my lap.. stranded..
i hate america.

so obviously sour *lemonspitsquint*
why bother getting angry?

each time i killed another person
my head became more like that of a wolf's

if i can't make everyone happy
why make anyone happy?

pillpoppingpackofrazorblades !!
(so perhaps i need someone veritably insane)

Mind if I feel like I'm following in your footsteps toward the sun uhhI'mhiddenawayinyourshadow! stepping only where you do cause it's safer there shh

step outside yourself -- I've a ghost me three steps ahead

tametametame ..sigh
I promise
I'll change my name to Promise
& I won't ever open my mouth
until it's white

anyone can ask: (is it true you're a liar)
someone said to me that the people who admit that they lie..
aren't really liars...
still not so sure. .. every0ne
seems a liar to me

though i'm distracted bi
mmmm..... repitition :

i've nothing but admiration for the positive + ebullient
perhaps jealousy

If I were not Alexander...

If I have nothing to say
I'll just say nothing, okay?

so i'm scared to record/make known/wrIte anything real because i do know that everyone un-me is a spi..

rare moment of truth: every time I click on a link, I open a new window and close the old one.. because I don't like either the back or forward arrows showing.

i'm not quite sure why i'm so interested in incest.
i adore it when people do things that i adore.

i don't like hard work.

i wonder if people would prefer being beautiful, or radiating beauty.
happiness isn't overrated at all.
people aren't art. i only decided so because they don't grow more valuable over time.
everyone should just accept that it's not amazing.
(it=asexual pronoun)