I've been writing so much, and all of it is secret.
But I adore this entry x10:

don't think you've a right to breathe, or smell bad, just because you're here. the only thing you can do because you've a right to is to be naive to a point where it's dangerous. NOTHING IS OPTIONAL.

yeah, so. for GOD'S FUCKING ACHE, WHEN WILL SOMETHING HAPPEN?!
i'm locked down and loaded.

do you know, I once tried to give myself an abortion? yeah, it was real funny. MAN. FUCKING funny. i'm being serious i am. maybe now i'm sterile. i pretend i don't want to find out because i don't care. BUT THAT'S NOT WHY!

LOL
mind you, i'm not even drunk. or loaded. ha.

i'm just dying to see the sylvia plath movie. just DYING. that's me alright.
so anyway. fuck.

GOOD MORNING!

go here.

what, no brain-to-lung explosions today?

i'm not impressed by much
anymore my brain's gone tough
i wouldn't recommend it anymore

watching black kettles boil
tripping over tripping
undermining
and when i finally spy those bubbles
oh!
i could burst