eloquent
misgiving
chagrin
bells ring in the morning

everything i've ever done is absolutely mortifying, death-defying
oh, well, I might as well
die myself!

I speak every other day, &
ah, all those wasted apologies ..

how much of your life have you control over?
oh,
bugger.
I hereby disconnect myself from everything.

don't feel bad about anything
double-blink it
a matter OF COURSE

fuck me
over.